Back to the routine

Christmas is gone and so is New Years Eve… The turkey turned out great, moist and with lots of flavor. I am really impressed and proud of myself! I also baked a walnut cake and some saffron rolls. Nicklas’ parents came at 3, the turkey was in the oven and all the veggies were ready to go on the pan. We had glögg, raisins, almonds, ginger cookies and the walnut cake. Dinner was ready at 6 and after that came the presents.

Santa does not come to our home; he is so busy that he leaves the presents with magic. I cannot describe the girls’ faces when they came out of the playroom and saw all the presents under the tree… they jumped but it was not enough, they screamed but then again it didn’t help. The excitement came out like sunshine from their eyes… I did not have the camera ready so I will have to rely on my memory for the rest of my life. 

On the 26^th we had my sister Cecilia back for a last visit before she went back home to Argentina. It is quite sad that the girls don’t get to enjoy their aunties and cousins more often… We had a good time, not doing too much but just sitting (and eating) and talking. I am also sad that I am not close to my sisters, not only for the girls’ sake but also my own. My sisters are my best friends and being with them makes me feel secure and comforted. It also makes it easy to give them a hand when they need it, and not being able to be there for them physically drives me nuts sometimes. But it is what it is and we all make the best out of it. Cecilia left the 31^st and the house feels kind of empty, not that she takes so much space! 

We had a wonderful New Year’s party at some friends. I am so grateful for their invitation and the delicious food and great time we had! I am very blessed to have met such great people here. 

It is an Argentinean tradition to make 12 wishes at 12 on New Year’s Eve and I tried to do it this year, too… But I couldn’t think of so many things to wish and that felt so nice!

I now have to start college again and I really don’t feel like it. It is very clear that my brain needs a brake, it is getting harder and harder to concentrate and to get things done and books read… Sometimes I really think about getting a job instead and then I realize that sometimes things look better than they are, sometimes we want (or want to avoid) something now, and we want it so badly that we get completely blind to the fact that by choosing A or B, we are not just picking up one of the options but we are also determining the consequences… so I take a deep breath and I go on, however tired, however fed up, and no matter how small the bank account is… I love nursing and the time will come when I will enjoy the rewards for this brain burnout I am going through.  

So not much more for today because I have to go on reading Public Health Science…